I LOVE THIS

recently;

makes me want autumn:

damien rice- cannonball

there is just so much out there...

in the world
on the internet
in our minds
in books
in the trash can
on the street
in our cars


and it just keeps getting bigger and bigger with more and more as I type this

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slumdog millionaire, bollywood flow

Lil Wayne - Right Above It (feat. Drake) by tsamo

and then there are the times...

when life takes you by surprise and you scream and jump for joy. and then you let the happiness sink in and you breath and smile to yourself. and then all of the nonsense and insecurities and negativity seem so far away.

and then anything is possible.

I don't like tahoe:

apologies to whoever "gets stoked for fresh powder" or has a 'keep tahoe blue' sticker on the back of their car... it's just not my jive.

my heart song:

because most of the time I want to be lion and everyone else just wants to be a cat.

mr. jones by the counting crows:

I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco dancer
She dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning
Cut Maria!
Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
Because I want to be someone who believes

Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah, no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely

I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray guitar and play

Mr. Jones and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you.
Uh, I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight
I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely

I want to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different reasons for that
Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe

Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio
Yeah we star at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you, Man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan
Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky
When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as funky as you can be

Mr. Jones and me staring at the video
When I look at the television, I want to see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars, but we don't know why and we don't know how
But when everybody loves me, I'm going to be just about as happy as can be
Mr. Jones and me, we're gonna be big stars..

this post is for spencer borup:

do you ever have one (or some, like a couple in a row) of those days that leave you feeling neutral? Nothing is really wrong or right, but one thing is for sure... you are nowhere near content...

I myself would like to think that I am a pretty content person and that I maintain pretty good balance in my life. However, recently it seems like life is moving really fast and its great and awful and wonderful and perfect and strange all at the same time.

I've met some really astounding people recently and I have become closer to people I have known for awhile but have never really crossed paths with until now. And that makes me happy and reassures me that life is fast for a reason and its wonderful that it is the way it is.

But, sometimes I can't help but feel like its going so fast that something great just passed me by while I was still worrying about something that just happened and then I'm meeting someone new and talking to my very best friend and then I've missed something again..

is this making sense? I hope I'm not alone on this matter.

and then there is change. and change is even faster. and its lovely and opens doors to people and places you never even knew existed or were possible, but I've found that it sometimes causes other people and places to drift away... like there needs to be room for the new and the old takes up too much space. and if I try really hard then I can and will find a way to make it all fit, but I'm human and sometimes I fail.

so, we'll just wait and see.