someday I will learn & it will stick:

- not everyone is gonna like me and that's okay
- most people don't deserve me
- the pain I feel will not last forever
- keep my mouth shut because it will just come back to haunt me
- standing up for what I believe and think will most likely always get me in trouble
- I can't take back my words
- most things aren't worth getting worked up and upset over
- let go of inhibitions; do what I want
- the mean things people say only last for the split second it takes for the words to come out of their mouth

love, m.

ooh la la:

theres this guy in the library right now, hes sitting next to david and I'm on the other side... I'm pretty sure that David does not know him however, the stranger keeps on talking to David and looking over at what David is posting on facebook. It's very funny and I'm trying to keep my laughter in so that the guy does not notice me laughing and start talking to me or read this post I am writing about him.

He just looked over at David's computer screen and noticed that David was clicking his mouse a lot and so the guy asked, "are you trying to confirm people" and David was like " no, I'm inviting people.." and the guy was like "what?" and David was like " I'm inviting people to an event..." and then the guy was like "... to a what?" and David was like " an event, I'm inviting people to an event..".

haha, oh goodness. so funny.

david just leaned over and told me that he knows the guy. bummer. oh well.

with all of your might:

I will:
let go of the fact that this isn't what you want.
grab hold of the fact that I can still breathe.

let go of the fact that this is what I think about the most throughout the day.
grab hold of the fact that the thoughts are the loveliest.

let go of the fact that I try and still cannot succeed.
grab hold of the fact that it may not be what you need.

stop feeling embarrassed
I gave it my all
I spoke what's true inside of me.

believe the truth was love
and know that it is real

and I'll hold on to that for as long as I like.

a little reminder:

this weekend:

a whirlwind of laughs, sleep deprivation, late nights, late mornings, hope, conversation, power, creativity, challenges, kisses, wonder, confusion, more hope, more power, stars, so many stars, hand holding, theatre, warm light, changes, work, thoughts, love...

a little more hope
a little more power
many more stars
and so much more love.

i've posted so much today:

recently, it seems as though I'm the only one that is brave enough to open her mouth and speak up when something needs to be said.
I'm confused as to why this is... Really, if someone hurts you or bothers you or makes you feel unnecessarily bad, why in the heck would you ever keep that quiet?

Also, on the prettier side of things: if you love someone, or many someones, and you love them a lot.. its okay to tell them like 14 times a day, or even more if you feel so inclined. because life is short and so fast at the very same time and it can be over like that.

so why waste a single second of it stifling yourself??

and yeah, sometimes there are repercussions and the consequences of speaking up are not worth actually speaking up. however, this is usually not the case and your words are just waiting to be heard. and there is nothing that feels so good as speaking your truth, how you see it and feel it. i'm just sick and tired of being the bad guy because I say how I feel... i'm never going to stop, so ya'll should probably get used to it. :)

be free!
love, m.